Book of Rememberance

Malachi 3:16

Stand or Hasten?

Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love His appearing. 2 Timothy 4:8.

This verse really struck me. I am still amazed about the wording. All those who love his appearing. I have always been taught about the crown you get for running the race and finishing. But here it says too all who love his appearing. Interesting!

Even as Christians – some don’t love His appearing ya know.  We want other things. We want him to tarry, after all there are things we want to do/experience in this world right? I mean as a women for me, I know Jesus taught there is no marriage in heaven so seriously Id rather Jesus wait a bit longer so I can experience that and then there’s pregnancy…. feeling a life growing inside. Man I want experience that!!.

I also worry so much for my loved ones that don’t know Him yet. I , I want them to get saved first, before their chance may be gone literally forever.

I agree and believe in praying  for time, standing in the gap for those who are still resisting. (Ezekiel 22:30) But there is also the difference between praying for time and wanting our stuff to happen first. We need to becareful our motives are always Holy and Godly. On the other hand we can also hasten the coming of the Lord! Definition of Hasten is: 1. To cause to hurry. 2. To speed up; accelerate. That’s crazy talk don’t you think? That we have some control over when Jesus will again return? [Looking for and hastening unto the coming of the day of God 2 Peter 3:12]

So we can choose to hasten the coming of the Lord or to stand in the gap for those still unsaved. I think there is selfishness in both. I get very offended when people want to pray for Jesus to come back. Clearly they think only of themselves and care little about the destruction that will befall those on earth who do not yet know Him. My entire family is unsaved and this hits close to home for me. The only people I know praying for Jesus to come soon are those who do not think or care about others because they themselves believe their family members to be saved and so the rest of the world is of no consequence.

On the other hand there is equally a selfishness in desire His waiting. Yes, I want everyone to have a chance to choose Christ, and we need time still for that to happen. Which one of us heard the gospel of Christ and immediately lived out everything as the scriptures said? How many of us were saved upon the fist hearing of Jesus name? I don’t know many really – but I can’t be praying for Him to give others more time if deep inside I am also secretly wanting more time to experience the life here.

The Bible presents both sides – to stand in the gap and to hasten His arrival. I think balance is the key. Yes, I desire to see Him in His Glory but at the same time …if in love I choose to wait for that Glorious Day in the hopes that one more person will accept Him and be saved from the wrath to come then I think I can wait patiently.

However, we can do both! Pray for the Lord to give time and revelation to those yet unsaved, but also continue to preach the gospel to as many as we can in the hopes of one more person will choose Life.

And if we love His appearing, look for it and hope for the day we can see Him as He is, all materialistic, current world things aside then we will have something to lay down before Him on that Glorious Day!  (Revelation 4:10)

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Life = Frustration?

I have so many things going on right now its hard for me to even think about what to write. I still have a couple of drafts in the process of much-needed attention as well. Ahh!

Anyhow, the one thing that’s been on my mind most this past week or so is frustration. I am completely frustrated. [Defined as: Feeling or expressing distress and annoyance, esp. because of inability to change or achieve something.] Mostly because the things I am believing the Lord for are things out of both of our control.

Just in case I will mention I believe that God is in control of all things, but He has given some of that to us in the form of free will and He will not make people act or do things against their will. When things are involving other people its hard because we can never guarantee that they will hear the Lord or follow His will – which will in turn affect us in some way if the answer to our prayer is in relation to their choices/will in the end. Grrr to all that 🙂

God has really be trying to get through to me in this area, I know it. I’m just having a hard time understanding and fully accepting that many people I love wont hear from Him or follow His will. My heart is terribly broken and the only thing that can currently end heartbreak is for this person to finally accept the Call of Jesus in his life. Without that, my heartache will continue indefinitely until Jesus Himself removes the pain in His Perfect time.

Crying daily is a “normal” part of life through this process. I was taught that time does not heal all wounds – Only Jesus Christ can do that! It’s very true. His comfort is something to really cherish. I have only been this heartbroken one other time in my life and I have known the comfort of the Messiah like none other. Through this pain I still worship, through the hurt I still trust. Through the tears I can sing. This is the Proof of God! Those without Christ do not have the same hope of healing, and joy despite it all, pain, tears and emptiness. Philippians 4:7.

I am ever thankful for His holding me up. The truth is in His Word. He never gives us more than we can handle. 1 Corinthians 10:13 (If we are handling it through His strength and power; Philippians 4:13 Apart from Him we can do nothing John 15:5) I find the extent to which that is true amazing.  I am currently in some of the most excruciatingly painful moments I have dealt with in my life and yet I still have enough life and joy in me to more than carry me through. I have been more than happy and energetic through these past two months of hurting. Romans 8:37.  It’s like a supernatural “genki” [Japanese word for energy, feelings and vitality] comes over me to get me through my days and then when I get home the cup is full and its time to pour the pain out on the altar and wait on the Lord for His peace, love,  and comfort.

His mercies are new every morning (Lamentations 3:23) – AMEN! that is what I believe is getting me through my days. I have been with no apparent side effects. I haven’t slept hardly at all, yet as tired as I am at work I’ m able to do as good a job as usual, have fun with the kids and still manage to go to Japanese school and learn decently there as well! It’s a miracle from God – He is empowering me to do all things Through Him!

If you have a problem, turn to Him. Lay it at the altar and ask Him to carry the burdens. He will graciously do it! (Matthew 11:28)  Having pains really isn’t fun, but having Jesus so close through them makes them…almost worth it!


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Practice before the Cross

We all need practice at pretty much anything we do. Especially if we want to succeed and do it well.

The same thing goes for spiritual things I think. That’s the idea behind God testing us isn’t it? I mean He already knows how were going to do/respond ect.. but he tests us anyhow. That’s for our own selves I’m guessing. So we can see what we are really like and whats hidden deep inside of our souls (our minds, wills and emotions). I know my soul often comes out in hard times more often than the spirit. Practice Practice Practice.

A few things have struck me about the wilderness.  I have gone through it a few times, its terrible yet it really does have a tendency to produce the most changes and surrender in my life  in a way very little else can.  It’s where I meet myself and look in that mirror God is holding. Eeek!

But in regards to the Israelites in the wilderness the Lord said this about it: And thou shalt remember all the way which the LORD thy God led thee these forty years in the wilderness, to humble thee, and to prove thee, to know what was in thine heart, whether thou wouldest keep his commandments, or no. (Deuteronomy 8:2)

It was a test for them, they needed to go through that in order to be ready and equipped to take over the land God was giving them. Then we see Jesus being lead to the wilderness for His temptations. Just in case… let’s be clear, it was not three times that Jesus was tempted. Technically 4 if you consider the fact that the very question was tempting Him to prove His identity“If you are the Son of God than…”) The bible says 40 days He was tempted. We have the three examples that the Lord wanted to speak to us through, however it was 40 days of temptation. For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. (Hebrews 4:15)

Anyhow, even Jesus needed practice! This was the preparation not just for His ministry in general, but for what was to come that day on the cross. Not much could really prepare one for the agony and torment, torture on and on… that He faced. Though spending 40 days with Satan….. that might do something to your faith and what not  – maybe even similar to the loneliness and desertion He felt on the cross in a small small way? I can’t say for sure. But the Father definitely believed Jesus needed the wilderness… so I’m guessing we all need it too!

That time helped to prepare Jesus for the real situation. The wilderness was just a test. He passed. But on the cross it wasnt a test anymore, it was the real deal! He NEEDED to stay true to His call and be sure He didn’t want to prove who He was. Matthew 27:36 And the people stood beholding. And the rulers also with them derided him, saying, He saved others; let him save himself, if he be Christ, the chosen of God. 37And saying, If thou be the king of the Jews, save thyself.
If Jesus Himself needed some wilderness, a testing for preparation for His work here on earth, than we can be sure we need it even more!

Next time your going through a wilderness, please remember that Jesus DOES understand, and He IS there. We never have to fear that which He paid for/conquered: separation from the Lord. Because He endured the separation for us we are ensured never to be separated again! (Matthew 28:20,                John 14:16)

Praise the Lord for all our learning experiences and Glory to the ONLY Wise God!  (Romans 16:27,         1 Timothy 1:17, Jude 1:25)

Have a Wonderful day!

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Blogging in the Spirit

This has been a rather crazy week!  So many things going on I have about 4 drafts saved that I need to work on and I have no time!!  but God has been showing me so much these past few days and I have learned so many things. I’m still trying to grasp all of it and find a way to put it all in writing. My mind is packed full!

One of the greatest gifts and answered prayers came this week when I somehow managed to come across an awesome blog that was a direct answer to prayer.  God is just so cool the way He works that way. I can’t even tell you how I found it aside from it was Gods leading . The post I happened to come to wasn’t even the most recent post so it is even more miraculous that I was able to  find the one that I needed to read the most!

I have been praying for sometime for God to lead me to a person or writing to help encourage me and put life into perspective as far as my singleness and deep desires for a family.  God brought me to a blog in which the writer has a way of helping draw out ideas and thoughts in me to consider the bigger picture.

The post I read  is about marriage, singleness and our lives not always turning out the way we thought but that in the end Gods will is always more satisfying and He always comes through greater than we could have planned on our own. I knew all this cognitively but somehow until I read her thoughts my heart and soul didn’t get it. I now have so much peace and hope for God’s plan for my life, learning to take it one moment and day at a time and actually enjoying where I’m at on the way to where I’m going (… thanks Joyce) and really just making it a point to appreciate every day God has given me. This is the post that is currently in the process of changing my life!

I thank her so much for being available and willing to share her thoughts and I am ever thankful that God lead me to her writing and has allowed me to grow so much in such a simple way.

I hope that you guys will go and support her and you can also let her know how easy-going yet inspirational her writing truly is.


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Transcending Places

The spirit realm is very real. More real than even our natural realm which is only temporary and passing away. (2 Corinthians 4:18)

I love when God uses things in the natural to depict that in the spiritual. Everything in the Old Testament was meant to be a picture of Jesus (full filled in the New testament.) The sacrifice of the son by the father, Saved by the blood of the lamb on the door posts, the shape of the tabernacle being a cross, the four gospels showing the four faces of the cherubim ect.. ect..

It really got me thinking. When we depict things in the natural realm that have effects in the spiritual realm we are really transcending places : Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord: (For we walk by faith, not by sight:) We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord. (2 Corinthians 5:6-8)

It is possible to be absent from the body and present with the Lord. We enter His gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise (Psalm 100:4) That’s how we get there – into the heavenly realm and that’s how the things in the spirit realm will become available to us here in the natural, for use to Glorify the Father.  Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath (past tense) blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ (Ephesians 1:3)

We already have everything we need, we just need to believe/claim it!  And begin to use it in faith for the Glory of the Lord!

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Clean Thy House

As I was praying, and meditating today I found it rather hard to focus. My desire was for the Lord. I hunger after Him so much these days I just cant wait to spend time with Him!

So what was the problem? I already took authority of every assignment on my mind and time. I welcomed the Holy Spirit, prayed…whats left? I was ready! But my mind wasnt there. I just couldn’t focus. My house is a wreck! Cant concentrate – gotta clean!

And I began to wonder to the Lord… is that a personality thing of mine? I often find it difficult to do anything before I clean. OR Lord is this from you? Are you wanting this place to be clean? Are you disappointed? Do you even care? So I searched the bible for anything I could find about cleaning the house!

Surprisingly there is quite a bit God has to say to us! I was surprised. Though not every verse may specifically be “clean thy house” They hold principles God wants us to apply to our daily lives.

Isaiah 1:16 Wash you, make you clean; put away the evil of your doings from before mine eyes; cease to do evil;

This verse is quite obviously talking evil practices but I noticed that it doesn’t say repent, go to the priest and sacrifice, it simply says clean! Possibly an unkempt home is evil in the Lords eyes?  In Proverbs 14:1 Every wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands. Am I building it up or tearing it down?

Proverbs 24:30 I went by the field of the slothful, and by the vineyard of the man void of understanding; 31 And, lo, it was all grown over with thorns, and nettles had covered the face thereof, and the stone wall thereof was broken down. 32 Then I saw, and considered it well: I looked upon it, and received instruction.

I have received instruction by the Lord to take care of the temple and the surroundings The bible is packed full of revelation of keeping a happy home for the Lord my Husband.

Proverbs 24:27 Prepare thy work without, and make it fit for thyself in the field; and afterwards build thine house.

I am the Temple of the Lord, my home is the work I must do without, in my field and when I have made it fit for living THEN I can work on growing and building the house within. (In the case that I avoid cleaning in order to do “spiritual things” but neglect the upkeep of the material gifts God has blessed me with)

Proverbs 31: 13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands. I could translate this today with “She seeks toilet bowl cleaners and vacuums, and works willingly with her hands”

27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness. Combining this verse with Titus 2:5 To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed. I guess these are the climax verses. The standard of God for my house that I do not yet live up to……Yet!

I am a work in progress, being changed by God from one Glory to the next. This house is just between glories right now. Soon it will be squeaky clean to the Glory of God!  Amen! (Let it be so!)

Well…Better get to work! 🙂

God Bless Your Home!

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